Still Buzzing

Still Buzzing

I am still on a high. I know it was a small triumph in the greater scheme of things – in fact in the greatest scheme, hardly even a blip – but considering how short a time it is since I was laid out by ME, how angry I was at what I perceived as the destruction of my life…well at least my career…it is  a massive high point.

Five years ago, I could hardly make it downstairs each day. Taking a shower took all morning and meant that for the rest of the day I could barely string a sentence together coherently. I resorted to drying myself with a hand towel because a bath sized one was too heavy for me to lift. I had, I thought, played my last game of volleyball, lost my management consultant business along with my intellect, seen my last film at a cinema, shopped for my last trolley load of food in Sainsbury’s. I couldn’t concentrate for long enough to read a book or follow a twenty minute programme on Radio 4.

Initially I hadn’t enough energy even to feel anger or regret. My partner was dazed at the silent, lifeless, humourless figure I had become. My children were angry.

I had become a ramshackle shadow of myself.

About SallyJ

I am a writer and a poet.
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3 Responses to Still Buzzing

  1. Jolyrat Jill says:

    Hi Sally!
    The start of something big? You are brave! I’m also tempted but it’ll all depend on you. You’re our mentor and we’ll look to you to see how it’s done.
    One thing – how do people find you? Is it by word of mouth, tv advertising campaign, book shop appearances or do you propose to do something diabolical to get yourself in the news? I look forward to more! J

  2. Adrienne says:

    So now that you are on the way – KEEP GOING!!!

  3. Maria says:

    Now look what you’ve started. You’ve even got me posting stuff in something other than a pillar box. Much easier than trying to find a size 7 Jiffy bag. That’s if it gets through, mind.

    Go for it Sally. Say it loud ‘I’m back and I’m proud!’

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