The Sea – a villanelle – the first I wrote

I was looking back at some of my earlier poems, and decided the time has come to rewrite, edit and improve. The was the first villanelle I ever wrote so I have a fondness for it, despite some clunky lines.

I have italicised/coloured the ones I think I should attack first. Any comments to help me along…?

 

Ceaseless, surging, the ebb and the flow
Of icy water that assaults the sand
Salty, tangy, lip-licking glow

Of face and finger, nose and toe
Seaweed, old plastic, string, float in a band
Ceaseless, surging, the ebb and the flow

Seagulls that skirmish, they swoop to and fro
Skimming the wave tops, dive bombing the strand
Salty, tangy, lip-licking glow

On the knuckles of bait diggers hunkering low
Filling old rusty buckets with shovel and hand
Ceaseless, surging, the ebb and the flow.

 

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Posters and deliveries

I have just delivered a pile of my anthology, ‘Random’, to the Runnymede Art Gallery and been paid for them all up front. This was such a great feeling. It won’t make me rich, nor will it make shed-loads of money for H4H, but it is step in the right direction.

I fondly imagine that I can now call myself a writer and not feel embarrassed. I have also moved a step nearer to the Waterstones book signing, cautiously set to happen on Saturday 7th May. The store manager has suggested that I should provide some A3 posters and A5 handouts about the book.

Organising my publicity does not come easily to me and so I will be scouring the net for advice about what the publicity should say, and how it should say it. Should the main thrust be the book or the charity donation? Should there be anything about the author? These are questions I need to find answers to… if anyone can leave a comment to recommend a source for advice I would be very grateful.

As soon as the date and time are set in stone, I will publicise them here. Anyone who knows me and can make the journey to Camberley will then be inundated with invitations!

The other burning question is what on earth do I do if not one person wants me to sign a book? It must happen. I’m sure I’ve read of book signings where the author presided in glorious isolation. Is it acceptable, I wonder, to become absorbed in a good book? Or maybe I should pretend to be writing furiously? One plan could be to lurk around the shelves so the signing table looks empty and unthreatening, then pounce on anyone who feels safe enough to approach it. Another ploy that crossed my mind was to round up a few strapping looking soldier types, and there are lots of those in Camberley, and use them as bait.

All this is a great new adventure and I have to remind myself that it is really going to happen and as the consequence of one fifteen minute slot at Loose Muse. If Agnes Meadows and Adrienne Dines hadn’t persuaded me to read my poems, I would still be convinced that my peak was as an aspiring poet and sometime scribbler, and would never have found the confidence to take the next step and believe .

 

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I place my heart

Finish the Poem.com provided the first line for this poem, and while I was considering it I was hearing of increased bombing in Libya and the death of two more soldiers in Afghanistan.

I place my heart in the hands of hope
Knowing those hands aren’t safe
I place my heart in the hands of hope
Because that is my choice.
The alternative is fear, a heavy dread
As I listen to the raucous voice
Of leaders, eager to make their mark
On history.

I place my hope in the soul’s
Imperative to step back from the brink;
The refusal of good men to sink
To boundless depths of greed, the need to rule,
To win at any – every cost.
I place my hope in others’ hands
Knowing they’re not safe, in the hope
That one honourable voice will rise above the rest.

I place my hope, my heart, in shaky, precarious hands
And every hour
I hear
Of more,
Violent
Death.

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Christmas trees out of the house at last!

The saga of the Christmas trees is over at last. I didn’t want to spend inordinate amounts of money on a tree last Christmas, even one with roots. I did however want to decorate a tree of some sort.

I decided that I would decorate twigs and branches but had difficulty achieving the effect I wanted with what was lying on the ground, and would not cut anything from a tree just to satisfy my peculiar interior design madness.

So off I trotted to the garden centre where I spotted a brilliant, giant silver-barked shrub, a witch hazel. It had generous, widely spread branches plenty strong enough to hold the odd bauble or three. I also spotted a tall, thin, contorted willow with bright red, beautifully knitted branches. I couldn’t chose between them and so, typically, bought both, safe in the knowledge that I could plant them in the garden afterwards. They were both attractive plants and so they would look great as specimens or bulking up the beds.

Decorated they were amazing, lending a Japanese elegance, one to the entrance hall, the other in the dining room. The bark colours were perfect and I was very pleased with myself. I had bought plants we would be pleased to add to the garden, had ‘talking point’ Christmas trees and had spent less than I would have had I bought traditional pine trees.

By Boxing day the witch hazel had burst into flower and its yellow bumble bee blossoms added something very special to the look of the centrepiece. The willow was more contorted than it had been as it was a good two feet taller than our ceiling height, but still looked healthy.

By twelfth night I had realised that the trees could not be put outside because they had been tricked by the central heating into believing Spring was just around the corner. So, they became very large house plants, but still looked good.

By February the witch hazel was shedding its blossom all over the floor and the dogs – two of whom have very low undercarriages and long coats, being long haired miniature dachshunds – were the perfect vehicles to spread it all over the house. I found it under cushions, in the beds, in cupboards and attached to carpets as if by velcro.  The showers also harboured the stuff. (I wondered what that was about until I caught one of the dogs licking up the water after someone had showered!)

The nights were still cold, often below freezing and these shrubs were by now bursting exuberantly into leaf. They had to stay inside.

However, by earlier this week, the end of March, I had noticed that they seemed to be losing the freshness to their leaves and not wanting to force them into Autumn, deemed it possible to put them into the garden wearing overcoats of agricultural fleece.

So, as of yesterday they stand, majestically swathed in layers of white, in their new positions, hopefully now able to stretch their toes into the warming soil and revel in the Spring sunshine. I planted the first potatoes the same week as I planted the Christmas trees!

And I have, at last, rid my house of ‘Christmas’ trees.

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What helpful people!

After the Waterstones adventure yesterday I rang Help for Heroes to see if I could organise some collecting pots and maybe a banner for the signing morning.

I know there are many forces charities to support, and I will be donating to SSAFA with my next venture – the anthology purely devoted to poems about the challenges and joys and fears facing families of serving forces personnel. After that I will turn my attention to a charity supporting PTSD sufferers.

To get back to the project inn hand, I have pledged to donate at least £2 per copy of Random that is sold to H4H.

I approached H4H first because I know most about them at the moment and I want to organise ‘point of sale’ stuff very quickly – before I lose my nerve.

The volunteer I spoke to was so very pleasant and helpful, I just have to thank him publicly – Simon, it was a treat to talk to you yesterday.

So, my registration number has come through and I can confirm that the money raised from the Camberley store signing will be donated to H4H.

Now – what can I write in the front of any books I sell? That is my next decision to be made – I need it to be relevant, un- naff and original…maybe a quote….?

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Waterstones here I come…

I really don’t know what came over me today, but I found the courage to sell my book to Waterstones, in the face of a little hesitance on their part because it has no ISBN number.

Buying a parcel of ISBN numbers is not difficult, but as they are available only in bundles of ten, which are then permanently anchored to the purchaser, at a price in excess of £100, it is quite a costly exercise. I don’t really want to spend that amount of money just now, but I would like to sell a few copies of my book, not least of all because I have promised some of the profits to H4H.

I have to acknowledge that another reason I felt able to push my book to the reluctant assistant was that that if I folded in the face of opposition, then my tame Rottie, standing quietly beside me ( Lizzie to most people), would have taken over negotiations and left them no place to run!

I was fortunate that they had in stock a previous anthology put together by a group of writers I used to write with, which had been sold, with no ISBN number, in aid of a local charity.

This enabled me to have five minutes with the manager, who not only agreed to sell ‘Random’ as part of a community scheme they run, but also suggested a Saturday morning book signing event to boost sales!

This pulled me up a bit sharp as I had not considered having to put my body where my mouth was, so to speak… but then, why not…what is the worst that can happen? With Lizzie booked to encourage people towards the signing table, how can  it go wrong?

The added bonus is that once the arrangement is set up with one branch of the book shop, then other branches can piggy back on it and buy from that branch as a supplier. So my next step is to talk to the other local branches…

The main thing I want to share here is that there is a way for writers to sell their books, ISBN numbered or not, to their local Waterstones, so go for it!

 

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Sunday picture prompt

Photo by James Rainsford

The poem does not do it justice in any way, but I enjoyed playing!

Stone Heart and the Gull

Well worth the wait my friend,
though often I gave up on you
and feared the worst. I blamed myself,
knew I’d asked too much.

Pah – never underestimate
the power of my wings,
my stubbornness,
my pride. Wind, hail, rain,
I take them in my stride!

So, tell me of the sea, tell me everything,
the sounds, the scents, the waves, the storms,
help me feel alive again and know the joy –
raw and cruel and wet and pure…

The sea is still rebounding, from shore
to distant shore. It feels great shame, reels
with the pain of forces it can’t fight. You
would not recognise this sea, the way it is tonight .

And yet it smells as sweet to me, the perfume
from your wings, the salt tang of ionated, blessedly
fresh air. After years of must and dust my friend
my stone heart just can’t care.

That is your loss and one I mourn, your lack
of understanding. It’s not your fault I realise
your blinded eyes , your deafened ears, the
coldness of your spirit…

Don’t lecture me, you dratted bird, your habits
aren’t much better. Look at my face – that was you.
You sully what you care for…so shut your beak,
Your smell I want, the bitter whiff of brine.

The thanks I get! Well not this time, I’m off
to mine some landfill. Just you remember statue
man as you stand there so still – I’m the only one
of us who can – who will return to sea!

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Walk with me – this one’s for you D…

Well, I'm not coming far!

The day is so beautiful we had to go for a walk, though Nellie, now sixteen years old was less enthusiastic than the rest of us. With much barking and excitement we piled out into the sunlit garden. The forsythia is gloriously golden and the blossom just sprinkling pink and white dust on the other trees.

Here comes the blossom

This is a lovely sight against an improbably blue March sky. The blooms have only appeared in the last two days. It has almost felt as though I could watch them burst from the bud – one of the advantages of a south facing back garden – the trees in the front are at least a week behind. I ‘rescued’ a dozen prostrate daffodils from the front this morning and was amazed to discover that their stems were actually frozen and snapped like shards of glass as I picked them. No wonder they were lying on the ground! Their bright yellow heads were unharmed by the low overnight temperature and frost – they are so much tougher than they look.

The ditches are full

Once in the fields the signs of spring are all around. The birds are bellowing their songs and fly in aerobatic swoops and formations from tree to tree and back again. The ditches are full from yesterday’s heavy rain and flowing like streams and the ground is heavy underfoot. The low springtime sun is throwing amazing shadows in the water and across the fields, which are greening up almost as I watch. As we tread through the emerging nettle beds, a doe, large and obviously expecting to birth soon,  is startled from her snug nest amongst the brambles and flees in silent dignity.

After she has disappeared my attention is caught by a flash of silver against the bright sky. It is fat, furry buds, polished by the sun, shining like gems on otherwise bare twiggy branches that have caught my eye. It is only pussy willow, common enough, but even the commonplace has magical beauty today.

The spill and splash of the river

Above the birdsong, as we approach the farthest boundary, I can hear the splash and fall of the small river. Swollen by the rain it is bubbling and burbling with renewed energy.
A little further downstream, the inquisitive nosings of the dogs startles a pair of wild ducks. I was far too slow to catch them on camera but their ponderous flight was yet another gift. I know they nest down on the river and hope we didn’t disturb them as they were setting up home.

Where the ducks were startled

They looked fine and fat, so hopefully now harm will be done.

Too slow again!

Rosie and Lucy had no idea what they had missed and were more interested in the treats I was offering to make sure they were thoroughly sidetracked, though Lucy may have had an inkling that something was going on. ..the smell of fox was very strong here so I expect the ducks are far more adept at looking after themselves than I was giving them credit for. There have been wild ducks down on these fields for as long as I have lived here so they seem to have self preservation strategies in place.

Dappled light and long shadows

As we made our way back along side the boundary ditch the dogs were driven to distraction by rabbits scattering in all directions.  Rosie excelled herself and obeyed my commands to stay with only one or two swift buzzes of the alarm on her collar. Such a magnificent improvement on the times when she would run off and be gone most of the day. Sadly, Lucy refuses to obey and so has to remain on  long (very long) lead. She ranged left and right at the full extent of her reach, managing to tie my legs in a wonderful crochet of knots and loops.

Don't want to go home

Must we go back?

By now the hulla-balloo back in the garden warned that the patience of the three older dogs was wearing thin, so reluctantly we retraced our steps across the paddock towards the back gate. Wellie counted us all back in and Puppy appeared behind us as if to pretend that he had been following us all the way.
At the back door, the only imperative was food. Naturally all five dogs knew they deserved treats, if not for behaving on the walk, then for diligently guarding the house and garden while we were gone. How lucky we are to be able to enjoy the arrival of Spring.

Now is it time to eat?

Have you had treats?

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One Stop Poetry – Friday poetically

Knight 3

The Knight – Repentant

So many dreams of greatness,
So much pride, – the quest, my
Badge of honour, worn jauntily.

Of all the battles won, obstacles
Overcome – this last, the swamp
Of knowledge, cost mightily.

Here I learned at last that winning
Cannot matter – the journey is
The prize, I failed miserably.

All the lessons I rejected
The repercussions I ignored
Trap me now, unrelenting.

At last I understand that
My bravery was foolhardiness;
My courtesy mere pandering;

My gallantry was lustfulness;
My honour – ostentation
And now I pay the price.

My limbs can’t fight the quicksand
Of squandered opportunity
And so I die…silently.

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Twittering all over the place

I must thank L for introducing me to Twitter as it was meant to be used! Gone are the days of following 6 people and being followed by 4 good friends.

Since she explained about the way to build up a following, the @ business (still haven’t really got the hang of this) , the linking to the blog and the intricacies of lists, not to mention the etiquette involved, I have found a whole new career.

I am writing much more than usual, though it is not exactly what I had in mind when I vowed to write every day in order to complete the collection of poetry with the July deadline.

I perpetually worry that I have been rude by not thanking a list-er , or that I haven’t ‘followed back’ when I should have. Then there is the problem of replying – not easy when there are so many tweets to investigate -I have just realised there is an easy way to do this which does not involve scrolling through for an hour or two…doh!

The next thing to be careful about, I have discovered, is to read what has been typed before pressing the ‘tweet’ button. Today I was a bit too eager and implied that the insides of the pyjamas I was wearing were being hoovered when a delivery of a mountain of compost arrived. Of course, what I meant was that I was hoovering while wearing my pyjamas…and the next tweet I sent could possibly have made that clear  had it not been separated  by some two hundred other messages from the original. As a stand alone tweet it was utterly incomprehensible.

Given that absolutely none of this communication is necessary, or even more than mildly interesting, the cynical side of me asks why I am doing it. Then I read someone else’s throw away comment and it makes me chuckle aloud, or a haiku appears that is impossibly beautiful, or a prayer is circulated to be shared and strengthened by numbers, and I begin to understand.

Of course the aim is for my writing to be more widely known, to make contact with other poets,  both of which are useful and sensible, but just as when the internet first captivated my butterfly mind, on my twittering journey I am finding all sorts of things I want to understand, hundreds of links I just need to investigate, many messages of thanks I have to send, loads of interesting people I want to get to know…

…and so thank you L for opening this other wide world to me – now do you have any ideas about ways to fit my ‘real’ writing into my Twitter and WordPress and Blogger full day?

 

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